looking for fire

I'm looking for fire, a new one. I think i may have misplaced my old one. i'm in a state of undiscovered limbo when the crutches are taken away and the doctor finally says, "go and walk". I'm stumbling now and my lack of equilibrium has me uneasy and vulnerable.

My frailty that comes from a new molt has let me hear a new taunt. "You can be just as moral and good without God". I wish i could stop the enemy's volleys.I wish i could go back to when i was so close to my God that i could feel his warmth.But my orbit around him has shot me past an apex and is now leading me into a distance filled with past cold habits.


It is now my duty to offset my trajectory for a collision course with the epitome of my life.


I need to reach out and not lean back on my belayer's rope. I need to climb and race to the top.The only problem with that plan requires much work.

Work is hard. Discipline is harder. both work in tandem to create success. Neither exist at all without passion. That is what i need. A fiery passion for God. I need to learn how to light it. And soon. 


God seems to have a way with me by releasing his grasp just enough to let me have to hold tighter.

So God help me find the torch inside me so that i can hold it high and say, "Here is the light to everyone's path. Come and i will show you how it works."
-Ty-